Ok so most of you know that my new career as a 1st grade teacher will start this coming August. My mind has yet to completely wrap around this concept that I can actually teach this child successfully and also balance a bouncing baby on one hip and some how manage to keep my very active 3yr. old content. I have been reassured that this will all fall into place and I will succeed. But it still hasn't helped from my nerves getting the better of me at times. Why is this concept so terrifying to me??? I was so worried at succeeding at motherhood and now I have succeed as a teacher? I know we teach our children everyday and we encourage them in learning but the practice of sending your kids off to be taught by people who have a degree hanging on their walls has been taking place for ages.
And can I secretly admit that the thought of having a couple of days a week with one baby while Kambry is off at school and Jack is off at preschool is BEYOND tempting!?! I can't imagine having a day where it is just me and Livy for the afternoon. Think how many Nap Parties we could have? ha!ha!
But I KNOW that this is something that Kambry needs from me right now and she needs me to be 100% dedicated to it. And I am very much excited about all the fun things we will experience together. But I just pray that when she turns 18 she won't hate me because her career at McDonalds won't support her shoe shopping habit!...just kidding!!!! I know that God has great things in store for this little girl. She will blossom into a beautiful young lady...she just needs sometime to grow.
I do want to thank Angie for all your uplifting words and your wonderful friendship that you have offered me to help me on this new journey.
I ask for my friends to pray that God continues to help me grow in my confidence in teaching this special child that he has trusted me with. I know that he will provide me with the tools I need to help her. And pray that I don't strangle Jack in the meantime! ha!ha!
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I am 100% confident in you! If any one person is equipped to homeschool it is you my friend!You tell those nerves to take hike! You will be wonderful, I just know it! love you~M
ReplyDeleteTrust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding (you probably won't understand the entire situation correctly, since our Lord knows everything about Kambry's life, including every minute of her future). You are already acknowledging Him, and He will indeed direct every path you take. Including homeschool.
ReplyDeleteOne breath at a time. He will be faithful.